The last 9 months have been a whirlwind (emotionally and physically). From the moment we found out we were pregnant to every day since I have felt excited, overwhelmed, stressed, overjoyed and have tried to read as much as I can to prepare for this baby.
I have to consistently remind myself that things are not going to be perfect, as I often want them to be and just take it a day at a time. I consider myself an organized (and often anxious) person and this pregnancy I’ve really tried to stay calm, live my life (without drinking) and enjoy being pregnant!
I can’t believe we are down to the last 5 days. We moved into a bigger apartment and have a space for the baby to sleep, hang out and get changed. All of his clothes are organized with diapers and wipes ready to go. My husband thought he would be out by now but we went to the doctor earlier today and I’m only 2cm dilated. We decided to make an appointment for July 30th (my due date) to have him induced if he’s not here already. I thought I would be this pregnant lady who loved being pregnant but towards the end I’m just ready to get this kid OUT! My husband is also getting very anxious and is OVER waiting..
July 30th for so long felt so far away…now it’s right around the corner and I don’t even know what to think! Of course I am so excited, but like I’m gonna have a kid! We’re going to be parents! It’s so surreal and honestly I don’t think it will really hit me until that first step into our apartment, we close the door behind us and we’re all just staring at each other. I have no idea what to expect. Of course I’ve read a ton, watched videos, talked to other new Moms but I feel like until you’re actually in it you don’t really know what to expect.
So as I sit here, on summer vacation (which I am SO thankful for by the way). Teacher friends: have your babies at the end of summer (yes being 9 months pregnant in the heat is horrible, but not having to work makes up for it). I’m wondering so many things “what do you look like? are you going to sleep? when will my water break? how long will I be in labor for?” For the first time in my life, there is something that will completely and utterly change everything I have ever known and we have NO idea when it will happen. For my husband and I, who are both planners, this is has proved itself to be quite difficult. We just WANT TO KNOW when he will be here! But alas, we must be patient, stay calm and know that he will come when he’s ready (hopefully sometime between now and Monday). I honestly don’t want to be induced, but I’m also so ready to have him in our arms that I think it’s a good decision. Everything during my pregnancy has been quite average, so with that in mind he will probably be born right on his due date.
Things I will miss about being pregnant:
- Being able to say “I’m pregnant” when not wanting to do something!
- Having (some..few, ok, very few) people offer their seat on the subway
- Feeling baby boy move inside of me. It literally never gets old.
- Not feeling bad about literally doing nothing.
- My desire to clean everything and nest.
Things I will not miss about being pregnant:
- People giving unsolicited advice
- People becoming “experts” on childbirth and then giving unsolicited advice
- People telling me that I look “so small” and asking if the baby is a normal weight
- The extra 35 pounds I’ve been carrying around
- Crying for literally no reason (although I know this gets worse postpartum)
- My swollen feet and achy hands
- Not being able to do as much as I normally did (but then I remember I’m growing life and that’s pretty cool).
Whenever he comes, we’re as ready as we’ll ever be and can’t wait to meet our sweet baby boy!
Here’s a video with bump pictures of the pregnancy. Enjoy!
**23 weeks when I thought I was really showing LOL**